Life is much easier when you just live it instead of overthinking every little thing. I have found that lately I have been overthinking everything trying to anticipate what the next move should be and how I should go about either rectifying it or adjusting myself in order to get through it.
Why can’t living be simple? Why does it have to be so darn complicated? Why do I make things so much more complicated than they have to be? I know when I don’t think and I just live, things seem to be a lot more bearable but when I start analyzing every single thing trying to perfect what doesn’t necessarily need perfecting I end up driving myself crazy. I try to chill out and just live but I end up bringing stress into my life and making things more complicated than they have to be in the moment.
I often find myself no where near my goals and that scares the heck out of me but I don’t know which path to choose or what to do in order to achieve what I desire. Maybe that’s my problem, my focus is on goals and desires rather than on God. Life hasn’t gone as planned. I am no where close to where I wanted to be in at this point in my life. Is this a reason to overthink and stress? Perhaps it is, or perhaps this is part of God’s plan that I haven’t come to peace with yet. Maybe I need to remember it’s the journey I should be enjoying instead of stressing and wearing myself down because I’m not at my destination yet.
I feel like I’m fumbling around confused, stressed, aggravated, disappointed because my life is not unfolding the way I expected it to, BUT is this is how God has planned it? I often wonder if this is what God’s plan is for me and I’m just not entirely on board because I’m not wise to His plan.
I don’t know where I’m going or what the plan is for me. I’m pray that God helps me to see His plan for my life so I have a clue to where I’m going however I don’t think God feels as though I need to know that information. If He felt that it was necessary for me to know then He’d reveal it to me. I believe that He wants me to follow His plan by keeping the faith. He’s testing to see if I trust in my faith. A true test: following Him without a clue to where it leads. Then the overthinking and fear kick in, what if my journey is leading me somewhere that is not pleasant and God is keeping me in this particular place in my life because He’s stalling me from experiencing a beyond painful experience. That what if scares me deeply. The overthinking of what could happen causes more strife and uneasiness. Is God protecting me by not speeding up my journey or is He trying to teach me something before I advance on my journey? Only God knows the answers and maybe that’s better that way, I don’t know.
I choose to trust and keep the faith in Him, knowing that He’s leading me to a life that is far better than the life that I had planned for myself.